I had a really really bad day today. Probably my worst to date for my Peace Corps experience. I'm hoping that this is the only worst thing that I experience for the next 2 years here in Salone......
Hawa had a catering gig today for a mining company's public disclosure meeting with the community today. I offered to help serve food. So I left school early after my last period and headed over to the town hall. She was contracted to serve 600 plates but there was way more than that, there were alot of who-riders in for a free meal.
When it was time to serve, I would carry out my tray of food to serve folks. Each time I left the kitchen, there would be a crowd of men/boys/children yelling "Ay Chinese!" or "Ching Chong" or whatever fucking combination thereof. Small children, ok, I get it, you are only a child and do not know any better. But seriously, when you are a grown man in your early 20s you ignorant stupid fuck, you rude ass motherfucker incapable of saying anything civilized so the best thing that comes out of your dirty fucking trap is "Ching Chong" really though, fuck off you dumb fuck!
I tried today, I really did but I'm no Jesus Christ. It took me about 5 round trip passes through that crowd of ignorant fucks before I couldn't fucking take it anymore.
First few passes.......I ignore. Next few passes.....I say, "Duya, mi noto Chinese, lef mi nomo". Next few times......I say "Ay, una lef mi! Shut the fuck up!". They come back for more, so it's ok to call me a racial slur but when I yell back "OTemne OTemne BlackMan BlackMan!" all of a sudden it's not ok. So they push me harder. They get in my face do some more of that ching chong bullshit and grab my arm. So what do I do.....my inner Richmond hella ghetto cray cray mode goes in full effect and I fucking literally lunge at the crowd of men and start yelling in Krio/English calling them stupid ignorant black men and I will fucking punch them in their damn mouths.
They think because I'm a woman that I'll just put up with that fucking bullshit. Fuck that, you seriously fucked with the wrong American girl. I was pulled away kicking and arms flailing at those stupid ignorant fucks. I was trembling with anger and couldn't help it but cry because of that fucked up bullshit. Hawa was pissed, she went out on a manhunt as I sat behind the counter in the corner to settle down from all that adrenaline pumping in my system.
They found the main guy and kicked him out. The Paramount Chief came by and apologized that I had to experience that along with other folks that checked up on me to say "Osh-Ya" (Sorry).
The thing that pisses me off is that they make "Greetings" such a big deal here in Salone. That's what you do here, you greet so why is it ok to blurt out "Opoto" "Chinese" "Ching Chong" to a stranger. That's fucking bullshit. For the most part everyone was on my side saying that they were ignorant rude stupid fucks but I had to argue with this one Pa who tried making up some stupid bullshit excuse on behalf of their misbehavior. He said that they say "Chinese" or "Ching Chong" because they do not know if I speak Krio. Bull fucking shit! Den yerie mi fucking Krio fayn! I said in Krio several times, no I'm not Chinese, leave me alone. Last time I checked, respectful Sierra Leonean greetings does not include yelling racial slurs in my face. The other excuse I hated is when some of them said that they did not know what they were doing because they were under the influence of alcohol or smoking the jamba. Again, bull fucking shit! Why can't people just be stupid ignorant fucks because they are just plain stupid ignorant fucks. Please don't use the excuse of "the devil made them do it" bullshit.
Whatever, it's over and done with. I had to do my rant because they fucking pissed me off. Totally isolated situation and doesn't represent the majority of people who welcome me and protect me in this community. But hey, ignorant dumb fucks exist all over the world. God help their uneducated ignorant souls. Like I said though, I'm no Jesus Christ living a life of humility, I'm ready to throw down Richmond style if need be.
Fuck that.....I'm so over it....tomorrow is another fucking day. I will deal......
Peace out!
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